The past month I’ve spent at my parent’s home in Arizona. It’s been somewhat of a sabbatical for me. Although I’ve done some work on the computer, I’ve completely stopped doing photoshoots. In fact, my camera has barely been used. I’ve stepped away from the hectic life of a photographer, deleted many of my connections to the social media world, and soaked up time with family.
I’ve learned a lot about myself and others this month. I’ve learned how to stop proving myself, how to let go of the hustle, how to just simply exist and enjoy life as it comes. I’ve learned about church and God and was able to get to the core of what I believe. I’ve been self reflecting a lot and realizing some of my flaws that need to be worked on. It’s been an amazing mental break away from responsibility and friends and my life in Hawaii.
I intended on getting a ton of work done while I was in Arizona, and although I did do some, most of the time.. I shut the computer and spent time with the people I love. And that’s okay. There’s no rush to get an editing class out or respond to every email. The world isn’t going to end just because I’m not constantly available. I feel like I’ve reclaimed some of my life back.
We’re about to head into a whirlwind of travel: tomorrow California, a week later Thaiand. Then Borneo, Palawan, and Cebu in the Philippines. Then Oahu then Big island then Peru. I don’t think I’ve ever bounced around so much in my life. I live for that kind of stuff!! But there’s a small part of me that craves the quiet still life I’ve been able to live while at my parent’s house. My days aren’t exciting or “Instagram worthy” and yet I feel content. I get to wake up, walk the dogs, make food with my mom, watch movies with my dad, get into discussions with my brothers, feed carrots to the horses out back, cuddle the cat. These are the type of moments that are meaningful and yet you don’t see them online. I’m not trying to be deep here, just observant.
I’m noticing patterns in my life and learning from them. I’m really really grateful for how my heart has opened up lately. There is so much I wish I could share!! But I don’t know the words to explain them. Maybe they’re not meant for the online world, but rather a friend in need or a late night conversation.
I’ll hold this month close to my heart.
And starting tomorrow, things get crazy.